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A few random things
You Should Watch Buffy Season 6
(Great video essay, which also made me laugh within the first five minutes by describing Xander as 'Reddit's first self-insert'.)
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I posted Chapter 4: Good Counsel of my fic. :)
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And because I love the Mr Master:
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Finally something that made me smile:
Inside Elon Musk’s ‘hugely damaging’ first year at Twitter
(I know schadenfreude is wrong, but if you set out to make a platform Nazi Central you deserve to fail.)
(Great video essay, which also made me laugh within the first five minutes by describing Xander as 'Reddit's first self-insert'.)
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I posted Chapter 4: Good Counsel of my fic. :)
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And because I love the Mr Master:
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Finally something that made me smile:
Inside Elon Musk’s ‘hugely damaging’ first year at Twitter
(I know schadenfreude is wrong, but if you set out to make a platform Nazi Central you deserve to fail.)
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So I have very mixed feelings over it.
The first show I stopped watching because I did not like the way it was heading was Supernatural at the end of S3 and looking back now I'm surprised I stuck it out for that long as I only now ever watch two episodes (Route 666 from S1 & Bloodlust in S2) of which the second is the most obvious but, beyond Amber Benson, it's a very good story with very strong inserted characters, or character in Lenore's case; Route 666 is full of characters I'd love to have known more about, or seen more of. Bloodlust does have a brief appearance of another character who I crossed over with Kennedy in a Buffy drabble.
The second was Doctor Who, or at least noticably so; there must have been others, since I really stopped watching it twice.
First time was after the double strike of The Girl in the Fireplace & School Reunion. I started to wonder; did imagine for a while I'd stopped dead right there, but the remainder of that season simply never stayed in my memory, if two really great stories like this couldn't make me need to watch it, then nothing would.
Season Five & The Ponds nearly drew me back, but apart from a handful of eps with actors I love, or stories which caught my imagination when downloading ~ or even the prospect ( tragically wasted ) of a female Doctor, and the (again wasted) potential for trans-inspired stories, or non-binary-inspired ~ I really have no interest in new Doctor Who, and I honestly struggle to enjoy the old show now as well.
I still tugs at my heart though, and I can't honestly call myself a fan anymore because when I made the decision, at the mid-S6 break, to walk away it did not break my heart. It does cause a nostalgic sense of loss, but I get the same with Star Trek I realised I'd not enjoyed since Deep Space Nine had finished, or that I had never enjoyed Voyager.
It's the loss of that love I mourn not the shows themselves.
There are a great many magical moments in S5 of Buffy; not to mention 'Family', 'The Body' & 'The Gift', but outside of them, no enjoyment.
Season Six has inspired beyond two-thirds of my fanfic, but I don't need to watch again as the pain it induces in me; real life friends having gone through and suffered and destroyed themselves as Buffy & Spike so nearly did was... well too much for me.
Tara's death; or rather the absurd way it happened, and the disgustingly dismissive way the writers & creators handled the grief almost made me not come back but, as with Who & Trek, what they were to me is stronger than what they became.
I need to write; even if I never post another story I still need to write.
So no love for Season Six; but no hate either.
There's a line Miles O'Brien has in a S5 ep (think it's S5) , TNG it is, Cardassians that sort of describes the emotions perfectly.
"It's not you I hate Cardassian. I hate what I became because of you."
I can't hate S6 because of all the writing it, and especially Tara's death, inspired but I do hate the pain it still inspires in me and the way it took a show I loved away from me.
I'm a fan of the characters, but not the show, now.
And that loss is hard to take.
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I never knew you watched Supernatural! I think I watched one episode, once. Unsure why. And from what I've learned through fannish osmosis it's not something I ever want to watch. Esp since apparently the women kept dying/getting punished off and how everyone hated the ending. *g*
First time was after the double strike of The Girl in the Fireplace & School Reunion. I started to wonder; did imagine for a while I'd stopped dead right there, but the remainder of that season simply never stayed in my memory, if two really great stories like this couldn't make me need to watch it, then nothing would.
To be fair, Season 2 of New Who is the weakest (if we ignore all of Chibnall Who, obviously).
I still tugs at my heart though, and I can't honestly call myself a fan anymore because when I made the decision, at the mid-S6 break, to walk away it did not break my heart. It does cause a nostalgic sense of loss, but I get the same with Star Trek I realised I'd not enjoyed since Deep Space Nine had finished, or that I had never enjoyed Voyager.
This reminds me of Eleven's goodbye speech:
DOCTOR: "We all change, when you think about it. We're all different people all through our lives. And that's okay, that's good, you've got to keep moving, so long as you remember all the people that you used to be."
It's the loss of that love I mourn not the shows themselves.
I often think that falling for a show is like falling in love. Except whereas being in love is very exclusive, when you fall for a show you share that love with countless others, which is the joy of fandom. However, love can also fade again. Something you loved when you were twenty might look very different when you are fifty. I guess it can be a little like a divorce, but also it's foolish to cling to something that you no longer feel the same for that you used to.
And the sadness is real.
I'm now thinking of Marie Kondo (I presume you have come across her) and her advice for uncluttering: "Does it spark joy?" I think once can probably use the same line for most things in life. And if something no longer sparks joy, thank it for its service and let it go.
Season Six has inspired beyond two-thirds of my fanfic, but I don't need to watch again as the pain it induces in me; real life friends having gone through and suffered and destroyed themselves as Buffy & Spike so nearly did was... well too much for me.
:( Yeah, that makes sense. For others, it felt validating to see Buffy struggling with the issues they themselves were facing, but again everyone is different. And for sure it's not a Fun Season. (I presume you've seen Darcie watching through S4 at breakneck speed, and it's just so much fun. I think S4 is the least angsty.)
Tara's death; or rather the absurd way it happened, and the disgustingly dismissive way the writers & creators handled the grief almost made me not come back but, as with Who & Trek, what they were to me is stronger than what they became.
*nods*
I need to write; even if I never post another story I still need to write.
I hear ya. It's... compelling. Literally.
So no love for Season Six; but no hate either.
You know, that sounds very healthy. An amicable divorce, if I dare use those words.
"It's not you I hate Cardassian. I hate what I became because of you."
That is devastating, but very good.
I can't hate S6 because of all the writing it, and especially Tara's death, inspired but I do hate the pain it still inspires in me and the way it took a show I loved away from me.
That makes sense, but it'd be nice if they hadn't fucked things up quite so badly. :(
I'm a fan of the characters, but not the show, now.
And that loss is hard to take.
I reckon there are a lot of people in the same boat, now, after all the Joss Whedon allegations. Maybe more 'loving the show, but not the creator'. Trying to separate the different strands. It's not easy. But then the further back you go, the more issues there are with almost anything. Very few shows did not fuck up, and I guess everyone has different lines that they will not cross.
I wish you peace. <3
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