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More re-watch...
Hello! I'm still here, just in lurker mode. Hopefully I'll get round to a 'proper' update at some point!
Our S1 re-watch is continuing - don't have much to say about 'The Pack' except NB is very good and the big difference between Hyena!Xander and ordinary being-a-jackass-Xander lies in the fact that Xander can do/say awful things, but they're usually in reaction to something else or he's lashing out because he's hurting. Xander doesn't do caluculated cruelty.
Watched 'Angel' last night and DB must have been getting some acting lessons, because he's very watchable. And of course Darla finally gets interesting before they kill her off... (how I love this 'verse where characters never stay dead!). Not many thoughts, but what there were decided to turn into a little 250 word drabble set near the end (sort of a FitB I suppose, not that anything happens):
Dust
He killed her.
His goddess; his mentor; his perfect mistress for 150 years... she exploded into dust and scattered over the dance floor of a small-town club and his demon howled.
Silently he walked out of The Bronze, with only the briefest of glances over his shoulder. His mind was too crowded with memories for him to speak with anyone living.
Many, many years ago Angel killed his mother, delighting in the look of pure terror before he tore out her throat. His mother had given him life, a life he had squandered, never understanding what a fool he was. When his soul had been returned, her face was the first he remembered and he’d felt sick at what he had done; guilt choking him for a century.
And now... now he had killed his Sire - the woman who had given him unlife. His Darla who had taught him everything - who had been his everything from the beginning. And now she was dust. Because of a young girl with fearlessness in her eyes.
The Slayer inspired feelings in him that he had never known before - he thought it might be love. He didn’t understand it, but knew that it was dangerous, because death followed him.
Angel had finally made his choice - going against his nature, his family, his fears - and he no longer had blood on his hands; only dust. And after everything, he discovered that Darla had one last lesson to impart, as surprising as it was acute.
Grief.
Our S1 re-watch is continuing - don't have much to say about 'The Pack' except NB is very good and the big difference between Hyena!Xander and ordinary being-a-jackass-Xander lies in the fact that Xander can do/say awful things, but they're usually in reaction to something else or he's lashing out because he's hurting. Xander doesn't do caluculated cruelty.
Watched 'Angel' last night and DB must have been getting some acting lessons, because he's very watchable. And of course Darla finally gets interesting before they kill her off... (how I love this 'verse where characters never stay dead!). Not many thoughts, but what there were decided to turn into a little 250 word drabble set near the end (sort of a FitB I suppose, not that anything happens):
Dust
He killed her.
His goddess; his mentor; his perfect mistress for 150 years... she exploded into dust and scattered over the dance floor of a small-town club and his demon howled.
Silently he walked out of The Bronze, with only the briefest of glances over his shoulder. His mind was too crowded with memories for him to speak with anyone living.
Many, many years ago Angel killed his mother, delighting in the look of pure terror before he tore out her throat. His mother had given him life, a life he had squandered, never understanding what a fool he was. When his soul had been returned, her face was the first he remembered and he’d felt sick at what he had done; guilt choking him for a century.
And now... now he had killed his Sire - the woman who had given him unlife. His Darla who had taught him everything - who had been his everything from the beginning. And now she was dust. Because of a young girl with fearlessness in her eyes.
The Slayer inspired feelings in him that he had never known before - he thought it might be love. He didn’t understand it, but knew that it was dangerous, because death followed him.
Angel had finally made his choice - going against his nature, his family, his fears - and he no longer had blood on his hands; only dust. And after everything, he discovered that Darla had one last lesson to impart, as surprising as it was acute.
Grief.
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He does turn up the night after, and he and Buffy share that *very* painful kiss which I think is supposed to be a sort of 'goodbye'.
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And DB is so very, very pretty in season one...
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Oooh, I really like this line.
And I love reading your thougts on the Buffyverse!
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I love that. I always find Angel and Darla so much more interesting than Angel and Buffy and I'm sure he would have grieved for her. Very nice.
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Grief.
Excellent. Really subtle and convincing POV.
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That was lovely, so subtle and yet it breaks your heart. I like how you paralleled the death of his mother with the death of Darla - and both at his own hands. It's an interesting distinction - as if the soul doesn't change who he intrinsically is. Er, rather than a mother killer, someone able to make the ultimate sacrifice for the person he loves. Ooooooh brain wave - Connor!
And after everything, he discovered that Darla had one last lesson to impart, as surprising as it was acute.
Grief.
::wibble wibble wibble:: Lovely writing.
Pssst! His mind was too crowed crowed or crowded?
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Don't forget Spike... *g* But I know what you mean, and I love Angel and Darla!
I don't for a minute believe that Angel didn't love her.
True, but I don't think he saw it that way - much like Buffy he had a lot of highminded notions about romance etc.
DB is so very, very pretty in season one...
Oh yeah! It almost makes me fall for B/A...
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Heh! We'd also have missed the hiliarious send-up of the whole teenage OTT-ness of it in The Zeppo.
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And I'm glad you're enjoying my thoughts - I'm afraid I can't help myself...
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It's an interesting distinction - as if the soul doesn't change who he intrinsically is.
OMG that's exactly what I tried to say! I'm so glad it worked!!!
someone able to make the ultimate sacrifice for the person he loves.
And the whole Connor stuff, as you said - it was *very* hard not to go off into the future and tie it in with when Darla staked herself...
And I made you wibble! Yay! ::smooches you for saying lovely things::
And it should have been 'crowded'!!! Grr! This is why I *always* need a beta!
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i've always thought this moment ranks up there with the Most Painful Moments of Angel's Life. of course, angel/darla's my otp, so it ranks with the Most Painful Moments of Girlpire's [TV] Life as well.
*sniffle*
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Awww.... *hugs Girlpire*
Once I had all of BtVS we (as in Darcy and I) started a re-watch, and it was the first time I'd watched it all in order after seeing AtS, which just made Angel much more interesting. The B/A is sweet, but just very... new, and Angel is clearly rather thrown by it all. And then there's all the Angel/Darla stuff which just turned me into the happiest little 'shipper (again). :) (And it's clear that Buffy just doesn't get how painful it is for Angel at all. Poor Angel.)
Oh - and thanks for reading! *g* I think this is the only Angel/Darla I've written, sadly.
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i know! that just makes it worse - he's made this gigantic sacrifice to protect her and she doesn't even get it. and that's always happening to angel. like in IWRY when he's the only one who remembers, and the whole thing with connor and W&H. it's no wonder the man was disappointed when he wasn't mentioned in the newspaper article about saving the actress' life or when wesley got all the attention in "guise will be guise." it's because angel never gets credit for anything! like when he saves the day in "couplet" and tries to give groo the credit and then groo credits him right back but all cordelia can focus on is groo!
i'm getting all worked up, and i shouldn't. i like that angel never gets credit. it makes him more of a hero to me, that he does these things at often significant cost to himself and very little compensation. just because it's right. he wouldn't be angel if he tried to explain to buffy just how big a deal staking his sire was.
he'd be spike. heh.
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*pets him*
it makes him more of a hero to me, that he does these things at often significant cost to himself and very little compensation. just because it's right.
But then on the other hand he has a tendency to make big, life-altering decision for others, without their consent, so in many cases is it credit he misses out on, or blame? (Just to point out his not insignificant flaws. But then without them he'd just be Groo, who's nice, but bland.)
he'd be spike. heh.
And she still didn't get it! (I wrote an essay on 'Crush' once... *g*)
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would you call it a tendency, really? i only specifically remember this happening once. but then i may be repressing. :)
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Well first of all I guess it's just part of his MO as Angelus - see Dru specifically - but later there's breaking up with Buffy, firing his friends, giving Connor a new life (without consulting the team) and of course his plan to take down the Black Thorn.
And that's all I have time for right now! I'm not saying it's a bad thing necessarily - I like it because it is usually a two-edged thing. He's incredibly self-sacrificing and arrogant at the same time. :)
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I'm very interested in the dynamic between Darla and Angel: is very complex, but not in a romantic way.
It's important this moment: he kills his "mother" to protect his first love. :3
*Freud face*
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Oh and thank you. I love Angel/Darla. <3