Some re-posting...

[elisi]

I want to write. I need to write! But since my computer time is chopped up into tiny little bits, with children constantly saying "Why are you always on the computer mum?", I cannot write. So instead I'll just re-post some of my buffy_love stuff.

These are 6 (semi-) interconnected drabbles, focussing on Buffy during the time span of AtS S5 (non-shippy, follow canon very closely). Putting them all in one post, hope you don't mind.


Snapshots of Buffy during AtS S5


1. Summer. (post-Chosen)

Some days, all Buffy feels is loss.

But there are other days - days when she feels as light as a feather...

Because she knows that she will never again have to face the sofa where she found her mother dead. Or the spot where Tara was shot. Or the bathroom where Spike tried to...

She will never have to walk past her own grave again or the place she buried Chloe. Or Angel’s mansion where her heart was almost broken for good.

And she lifts her head, breathing in her new freedom as she whispers a thank you to Spike.



2. Autumn. (post-Chosen)

Buffy once promised Dawn to show her the world, but it was not until after Sunnydale became a crater that she was really able to fulfill that promise. For months they enjoyed their newfound freedom discovering Europe, until one day in late autumn, sat at a little café in Rome, Dawn declared. "You know - I like it here."

Buffy smiled. "Me too! I mean the shopping alone... Lets go looking for a flat and get some sort of Italian phrase book - I want to understand when the vampires insult me!"

It took a long time before Dawn stopped laughing.


3. Winter. (Damage)

Wolfram & Hart. International, institutionalised evil. Endless pages detailing atrocities that made Buffy’s stomach churn. And Angel was working for them... never actually telling her about this, never explaining, never...

Did she even know him anymore? Because if this was what he had chosen, they didn’t even live on the same planet.

“Buffy? I’m sorry but we need a decision...”

She looked up at Giles, mind made up. “Get our Slayer back. Then let him know that we don’t trust him - we’re not on the same side anymore.”

A clean break. And this time she would be the one walking away.


4. Winter. (post-Damage)

Buffy went to see Dana. Faith was there already, doing her best to help the professionals Giles had gathered understand what exactly they were dealing with.

The two Slayers watched her; listening, assessing, trying to work out how to relate to her. Hearing Andrew tell of what Dana had done in LA, Buffy felt her insides go cold and leaden.

When he’d left she turned to Faith.

“What did I do?” she whispered.

Faith was silent for a long time, then slowly shook her head. “Wasn’t you, B. She chose it. Chose the strength. Nobody can ever hurt her again.”



5. Spring. (pre-TGiQ)

It was 3 days after Andrew moved in, that Buffy realised that he was keeping secrets from her. It took a great deal of 'persuation' before he spilled, and the news left her reeling. Spike had been alive for months and never even called?

It took a while to sink in, but then she squared her shoulders.

"Fine! If he's going to be a jerk, then so be it! You know what? No more mourning for me - I'm going to have fun from now on!"

She thought for a moment.

"And I think I'll give that Immortal guy a call!"


6. Spring. (post-TGiQ)

There are many reasons why Buffy enjoys dating The Immortal.

He is impossibly handsome and tall, dresses with exquisite taste and dances incredibly well. He knows all the best restaurants and is like a private tour guide around Rome’s lesser known spots. He makes her laugh with his slightly pompous ways, but she enjoys his many presents and the fact that he always pays. And his yacht is like a floating dream, making her feel like the queen of Eurotrash.

But the best thing - the one thing that outshines all the rest: He doesn’t love her. And he never will.

Comments

[harmonyfb.livejournal.com]

I want to write. I need to write! But since my computer time is chopped up into tiny little bits, with children constantly saying "Why are you always on the computer mum?", I cannot write.

Sister!! You understand! ::weeps on your shoulder::

But the best thing - the one thing that outshines all the rest: He doesn’t love her. And he never will.

Oh. Oh, I like that. :)

[elisi]

::weeps on your shoulder::
Aw, poor you! ::rocks Peri to sleep::

And I snuck in some writing time whilst the baby had her afternoon nap (I *should* have been cleaning the fridge, but...). Managed quite a good start on my 'Gud Summry' fic (Xander finds out where all the toilet paper went.) - it is nice not to worry about misspellings and clichés!

Oh. Oh, I like that. :)
Oooh, thank you for reading! And if I could have worked in the words 'doing a Parker' without spoiling the mood of that one, I absolutely would have!

[desoto-hia873.livejournal.com]

The one about Dana gave me goosebumps.

[elisi]

Really? ::is incredibly flattered::

(I actually owe the idea for that one to avrelia who wrote a post about how she thought that the Potentials could choose whether to get their Slayer powers or not when Willow did her spell.)

[amavel-bel.livejournal.com]

These are all great!!! Beautiful job, hun ;-).

[elisi]

Aw thanks! ::blushes::

[frenchani.livejournal.com]

Because she knows that she will never again have to face the sofa where she found her mother dead.

You killed me there!

[elisi]

Oh dear. Will you be OK?

[frenchani.livejournal.com]

I'll survive. :- )

I meant that was a killer-line that you wrote, among other lovely things. You nailed it!

Perfect for Buffy love community.

[elisi]

Aw, thank you! I'm all overwhelmed now...

[femmenerd.livejournal.com]

Lovely. Those first two especially--bestill my heart.

[elisi]

Aw thank you. I'm so glad you liked them. :)

[(Anonymous)]

Really liked those very clever

[elisi]

Thank you. :)

[sweet-ali.livejournal.com]

Because she knows that she will never again have to face the sofa where she found her mother dead.

But the best thing - the one thing that outshines all the rest: He doesn’t love her. And he never will.

All of this is beautifully written, but those two lines in particular left such an impact. Wonderful.

[elisi]

Thank you so much for reading, and I'm glad you liked my little drabbles. :)

[deird1]

Ooh, nice.

[elisi]

I guess in a way these could (with hindsight) be seen as a very early forerunner for 'My Immortal'. Very glad you enjoyed.

[kiki may (from livejournal.com)]

So sad and so beautiful.
I love the way you imagine Buffy post-Chosen. Her decisions, her memories, her courage ... makes me remember again why she's my favorite female character.
I also understand her decision in Damage, her distance from Angel.
Now, I think I will hide myself in a sea of fluff and happy endings! <3