Some Spuffy (and B/A) thoughts....

[elisi]

We watched 'Bad Eggs' the night before last (Darcy said lets watch Buffy, I said which one, and he got impatient, pulled out a random disk from a random DVD box and said the fourth one on this. Which was 'Bad Eggs'.)

Aaaaanyway, the B/A scenes are all schmoop and kisses and they're just so sweet and tragic (c'mon! Who hasn't been in love and felt like that?). This scene especially just kills me:

ANGEL: (swallows) You really don't care what happens a year from now? Five years from now?
BUFFY: Angel, when I look into the future, a-a... all I see is you! All I want is you.
ANGEL: I know the feeling.
He reaches down to kiss her. He finds her lips and she responds. They kiss more and more passionately. The camera pans away from them and across a gravestone that reads 'In Loving Memory'.

The next episode is 'Surprise'... And the thing is, even though Angel will come back from hell and all that, they will *never* be as happy together as they are in this episode (or OK, the end of the next one, but you know what I mean). Ever. They get to the top and then it's all downhill - they can never get back up.

But Spike/Buffy - that's a different thing altogether. Their story *ends* at the top - it starts out ugly and messy and twisted and slowly, slowly gets more beautiful.

So although I want Spike and Buffy to end up together, in a way it doesn't matter. Because their ending was perfect.

Finally I'm going to share this song from stoney321's Buffy Playlist, because it is the *perfect* song for their last scene: Brighter Than Sunshine.

Brighter Than Sunshine

I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didn't believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine

I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling

I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

I got a feeling in my soul ...

Comments

[elisi]

this episode actually reminded me of how frustrated I was with Bangel in general - it's so immature.
Oh absolutely. One thing I found myself wondering about was what went through Angel's head - because he's *not* 16. Mostly I think he's just amazed at the fact that she actually loves him - I think that at this point a lot of his self-validation comes from her. If someone as wonderful and good as Buffy can love him, then surely he's worth something - he thinks that she is his redemption (which is one reason he loses his soul). Of course that all comes crashing down to earth: "Look, I'm weak. I've never been anything else. It's not the demon in me that needs killing, Buffy. It's the man."

I tend to react strongly to purely short-term views of life and love and such.
Romeo & Juliet would have been divorced 10 years down the line, I'm sure!

[ibmiller.livejournal.com]

Oooooh, I love Amends! The closet Bangel in me comes out and weeps openly every time.

Well, that and I think it's a great portrait of redemption and grace.

Totally agree on the self-validation thing. But it's still so irritating, especially when compared to the much more grown-up Spuffiness. Obsessed, you say?

Since R&J were Catholic, I'm pretty sure they would still be married. However, I'm pretty sure Romeo would be hanging out with Rosalind again, and Juliet would think that that Paris looks pretty hot. :-)

[elisi]

Oooooh, I love Amends! The closet Bangel in me comes out and weeps openly every time.
I remember! :) I think it's terribly, awfully tragic - because they think they're getting another chance, that things will work out. But they won't.

But it's still so irritating, especially when compared to the much more grown-up Spuffiness.
However much I like early Buffy, I always loved grownup!Buffy more.

Since R&J were Catholic, I'm pretty sure they would still be married.
There is that... what I was thinking about was more that her cousin killed his best friend, and he killed her cousin (who was obviously a dear childhood friend of hers). I don't know that they would have been able to overcome that in the long run. Oh and if recall correctly then in the play Romeo kills Paris (Paris is watching over dead!Juliet, and they fight).

[ibmiller.livejournal.com]

If you check out my addition to the Christophe Beck fansite here (scroll down to where it says "additional data") I made comments on how the music seems to do the same thing you say about not really having another chance.

Well, I was thinking in a world in which R&J weren't, you know, dead. Which would mean that all those other people wouldn't be dead either. But that's just my wacky brain. Trying to be funny, you know?

[elisi]

how the music seems to do the same thing you say about not really having another chance.
Oh I love that - I wish I could say clever things about music... (I wrote something once, which I might look up later if I have a moment)

Which would mean that all those other people wouldn't be dead either. But that's just my wacky brain.
I honestly never even thought that far...