elisi: Edwin holding a tiny snowman (Angel - I just wanna feel by glenien)
elisi ([personal profile] elisi) wrote2006-05-05 11:11 am

Mmmm, Angel...

Caught the last 10-15 minutes of 'Reprise' yesterday on Sky One. From where Angel gets thrown out of the window, then goes into the Evil Lift with Holland Manners.

It's just one of those truly excellent bits of AtS. Here's the key moments:
Angel: "You're not gonna win."
Holland: "Well - *no*. Of course we aren't. We have no intention of doing anything so prosaic as winning.'"
Holland laughs and for the first time Angel turns his head to glance in Holland's general direction.
Angel: "Then why?"
Holland: "Hmm? I'm sorry? Why what?"
Angel: "Why fight?"
Holland: "That's really the question you should be asking yourself, isn't it? See, for us, there is no fight. Which is why winning doesn't enter into it. We - go on - no matter what. Our firm has always been here. In one form or another. The Inquisition. The Khmer Rouge. We were there when the very first cave man clubbed his neighbor. See, we're in the hearts and minds of every single living being. And *that* - friend - is what's making things so difficult for you. - See, the world doesn't work in spite of evil, Angel. - It works with us. - It works because of us."
(Lift finally stops and opens to the exact same scene they just left)
Holland: "Welcome to the home office."


And Angel is so lost! Of course when he comes home, he finds Darla. Which leads to one of those scenes that gives me goosebumps because it's *so* dark:

Angel: "Or maybe what you really want is this! (Pushes her up against the wall and gently brushes the hair back from her face) That may be - what you really want, isn't it?"
Kisses her softly, then, when she doesn't react, a little harder. Darla pushes him away.
Darla: "Don't play games with me."
Angel: "I'm not playing. I just wanna feel something besides the cold."
Pushes her back onto a table, lowers himself on top of her and kisses her again. Darla reaches up and pushes his jacket off his shoulders, kissing him back. Angel strips off his jacket with her help, still kissing her. Suddenly Darla begins to laugh and Angel pulls back the same time she pushes him and gets up.
Angel: "Why're you laughing?"
Darla continues to laugh, not answering him, and Angel hits her, sending her crashing through the glass doors leading to his bedroom. Angel slowly walks after her as she rolls over and looks up at him.
Angel: "Don't you feel the cold?"
Angel grabs her by the shoulders and pulls her up.
Darla: "What're you doing?"
Angel: "It doesn't matter. (Strokes the side of her face) None of it matters."
He kisses her again and she responds. They fall back onto the bed and strip off each other's clothes.


See it's nothing like 'Smashed', although on the surface it might seem like it. Buffy is reaching out to 'touch the fire' - to try to feel alive. Spike's claim that she 'came back less human' frees her to pursue the attraction she feels for him. It's majorly screwed up, but there is hope and fire amidst the lust and despair.

Now Angel and Darla... Angel doesn't reach out to feel the fire. He wants to 'feel something beside the cold' and Darla is - convenient. What he is trying to do, is to feel less - that is, to loose his soul. Because he can't find a reason to keep fighting, if he has already lost. Also he is very, very dangerous. When he throws Darla through the doors and slowly follows, it is one of the most chilling moments I've ever seen - his physical prescence is not always accentuated, but it is here. (It's also one of those moments that makes me want to run off and warn poor little 16-year-old Buffy, because this guy is *so* not boyfriend material!!!) And it makes me miss my show SO MUCH! *wail*

If anyone knows of an Angel icon where he looks all large and looming and scary, but *isn't* Angelus, I'd love to know! :) (The one I'm using is by [livejournal.com profile] glenien btw.)