But I have to disagree with you on the Angel thing - well sort of. Angel definitely remembers everything he did when he was evil (he points this out at least twice), but he very deliberately tries to *act* differently than Angelus. 'Angel' is to a large degree a construct, a way of suppressing his demon, to somehow distance himself from what he is. I just re-watched 'Guise Will Be Guise' which is a *fascinating* episode. F.ex. this bit:
[Angel and Magev The Fake Swami are sparring] Magev: "You're fighting yourself. Fight me! Why are you holding back? Why can't you let go?" Angel: "Because." Magev: "Why?" Angel over their locked staffs: "If I let it, it'll kill you." Magev: "It?" Angel disengages and steps back: "The demon." Magev: "Ha! But the demon is you!" Angel: "No." Magev: "Yes! That's the thing you spend so much energy trying to conceal!" Angel shakes his head: "No, I just - I can't let it control me." Magev nods: "Ah. I see. (Hits Angel's knee hard then hooks the staff behind his legs to drop him onto his back) You *don't* think it controls you?"
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But I have to disagree with you on the Angel thing - well sort of. Angel definitely remembers everything he did when he was evil (he points this out at least twice), but he very deliberately tries to *act* differently than Angelus. 'Angel' is to a large degree a construct, a way of suppressing his demon, to somehow distance himself from what he is. I just re-watched 'Guise Will Be Guise' which is a *fascinating* episode. F.ex. this bit:
[Angel and Magev The Fake Swami are sparring]
Magev: "You're fighting yourself. Fight me! Why are you holding back? Why can't you let go?"
Angel: "Because."
Magev: "Why?"
Angel over their locked staffs: "If I let it, it'll kill you."
Magev: "It?"
Angel disengages and steps back: "The demon."
Magev: "Ha! But the demon is you!"
Angel: "No."
Magev: "Yes! That's the thing you spend so much energy trying to conceal!"
Angel shakes his head: "No, I just - I can't let it control me."
Magev nods: "Ah. I see. (Hits Angel's knee hard then hooks the staff behind his legs to drop him onto his back) You *don't* think it controls you?"
Hmmmmmmm. Angel is a wonderful character! :)